I am a badass and I need to stop doubting myself

I started this blog over a year ago with simple intentions and quiet enthusiasm.

I just wanted to write.  To add my voice to the blogosphere. To share the cool little things that seem to happen every day.  Some little, some big. But all, I felt, noteworthy.

Because I felt like, if I didn’t write them down to remember them, that they didn’t somehow matter as much or that I was showing a lack of appreciation.

I bought the url, set up the site and got rolling; got excited; got creative; got giddy; got analytical… got… stuck and started overthinking each post and wondering if people would read it and think I was a fraud and that I was being ridiculous thinking that anyone would want to read what I’d write.

And so I froze.

I started this blog over a year ago and only published… four, just 4, only FOUR… posts.

Oh but I wrote… I wrote 17.  They’re just all hiding in draft form afraid to come out where people can see them. Like me after a haircut. I feel good about it but I’m afraid to look into your eyes in case you hate it.

Anywho, I read somewhere that it’s one thing to disappoint others or for others to disappoint us, but it’s quite another thing – a tragic thing – for us to disappoint ourselves.

And so.  I’m going to call up my inner badass and get to blogging.

I’m not going to question every post to the point of keeping it in draft form and, perhaps much to your dismay, I’m not going to take days to edit each post.  If I do that I’ll lose the feeling of the day and the emotion won’t be fresh in my mind anymore.

So today is day one. And I’ll just share one thing little miracle – this past weekend I read this book You Are a Badass and it is a game changer for me.  There are lots of good bits but some I love are the nudges about meditation, the importance of being grateful, and lessons on “how to tap into the motherlode”.  Because who doesn’t want to tap into that?